“I feel like wiping that big smirk off your face,” Roni said as Panji opened the door and stepped into the apartment.
“Roni, there’s something I have to tell you…” Panji hesitated a while, “We should sit down.”
“You look so serious, I’m getting worried, ” Roni joked.
“Cousin,” Panji sat down on the couch, he gestured Roni to sit in front of him, He waited until Roni was seated before continuing, “Look, my parents and my wife to be’s parents have agreed on a wedding date. We are going to get married in two months. ”
“Congratulations!” Roni said, “But why the serious face?”
“I’m marrying Luna….” Panji held his breath.
Roni opened his eyes in surprise, he looked at his cousin sharply, leaned back on the couch and swallowed his spit, “Lu…Luna…? But, how….how could you? You know that I have …”
“Cousin, you know that I have feelings for her, why did you ..”
“Roni….Luna and I, we knew each other from before she met you, we were friends, in the States. She…”
“It was you, her boyfriend…”
Panji nodded, “That’s not the only thing. I hope you won’t tell anybody about this, for her sake.” He exhaled, “Samantha is not really her sister, she’s our daughter. It happened when we were younger, it was my fault, she doubted and tried to refuse, but I wouldn’t take no for an answer.”
Panji was taken by surprise when suddenly Roni launched forward and punched him on the face, “You son of a bitch!” He shouted.
“What are you doing?” Panji covered himself with his arm to block in case Roni decided to attack again.
“I’m embarrassed to be related to you, I didn’t know that my cousin was such an irresponsible coward.” He fumed.
“I know…look, I told her that I’m really sorry about what happened in the past…I…”
Roni grabbed Panji by the collar of his shirt and pulled him up off the couch, “Sorry? Sorry isn’t enough. Sorry doesn’t cover what you did to her! You almost destroyed her!”
“Roni, what do you mean?” Panji was caught by surprise, “What do you mean I almost destroyed her?”
“You and her are the same age, but she graduated high school after you did, do you know why?”
“Because of the baby….. ”
“Not only that, when I was in high school, I heard talk, gossips around the school, about a girl, a transfer student from the US. The kids at school said that she was treated for a while in the psychiatric ward. Only after I got to know her, did I know that she wasn’t crazy like the kids say she was. She was very sad and depressed.”
“What?” Panji opened his eyes in disbelief.
“Now I think I know the real reason.” He released Panji’s collar and threw him against the couch.
“It must have been post-partum depression, but she didn’t tell me anything. She seemed so…. so calm and understanding about everything. Roni, I know you care for her, but by the way she’s taking this matter, I think she’s moved on and she has forgiven me.”
“I hope you’re right…. For her sake, I hope you’re right.”
“I love her, I want to make her happy, to cure her pain and take care of her for the rest of her life. I want to make it up to her for what happened in the past,” Panji said firmly.
“What about your late wife, how do you feel about her right now?” Roni arched his eyebrow.
“Anggraeni? She’s…..although she looked a lot like Luna and I can even go so far as saying that they might be twins, but for me she could never really take Luna’s place and vice versa, each woman holds a special place in my heart.” He replied solemnly.
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